Losing It All For A Cause

06.30.10

On June 28th, 2010 my new single “I Will Not Say Goodbye” was released to country radio. In the music video that was filmed for this song, 3 true life stories were highlighted of people who lost loved ones that were dear to them. Each one who lost their life left behind an impact on the world that surrounded them (family, friends, etc.). To leave an impact with your life that remains after you pass away is such an awesome statement.

With July 4th approaching, I began to focus on the ultimate sacrifice of all, laying down your life to save someone else’s life. The freedom we celebrate with burgers on a grill and fireworks in the sky wasn’t free. It was paid in bloodshed by people who knew what was at stake, the birth of a nation where people could have freedoms and a new way of life.

Names and faces of many who have lost their lives and continue to for our freedom might never be recognized in lights or on a television, but the results of their life’s impact are celebrated daily. They paid the ultimate price for a cause they felt was worth dying for. Many of us will never serve in the armed forces, but can still celebrate the sacrifices of our men and women who laid down their lives for us.

In light of this, I beg to ask you the following question: For what cause will we be known for when we pass away? Maybe we won’t lose our life to save someone else’s, but will people recognize the impact of what we stood for in our lives? Will we have left this world a better place, even if only impacting one person? As you go forward into the July 4th holiday, I encourage you to find, or continue to operate in that cause that you feel passionate about, working toward and continuing to leave your mark on the world that surrounds you!

 

 



Comments (14)

 
Life seems to always go full circle whether we want it to or not. I have learned many valuable lessons in my 27 years and they have always been followed by thoughts on whether or not I have done the right thing. Being an avid Idol fan and a Danny Gokey fan - I have learned that heart ache, frustration and blood, sweat and tears come in many forms.
I am leaving my mark and that is letting other survivor's know that they do not have to live in fear or pain because of the words and actions of another. I give speeches and here is how some of the speech goes -

I don’t want to feel anything any more. If I can’t feel then I won’t have my heart broken. If I can’t feel then I won’t hurt. If I can’t feel then I don’t have to hide from the pain. If I can’t feel then I don’t have to run to feel numb. Life is complicated and the circle of life has brought intense pain in my life.
 
Why do I feel this way? I feel this way because my innocence was stolen from me. My honesty was taken away and my self-confidence was flushed down the toilet with what I had left of my self-pride. One person is all it took for me to lose all of this. I used to shine like the sun and not have a care in the world. My world was violated the day he raised his hand to me. The day he deafened my ears with his words. The day he caused the pain that is irreversible.
 
The chill runs up my spine and my cheeks flush as the first bars of the music play. A sad song always generates this reaction. I stop and stare into space with my mind trying to clear. The pain is real, the tears well in my eyes and I clench my fists. I sigh heavily and fight back the emotions that have once again taken over me. One day this will all pass. The emotions are still raw, the wounds still fresh and the healing has not made its full circle. I hate when I feel like this but I realize it is normal. I realize that these will some day go away; I won’t feel like this any more.
 
It was a roadblock for me. Looking back I see I felt deflated. I could not bear to live with myself any longer. I had to pick myself up and not only take care of myself but take care of the child I had growing inside of me. Did he know that I had his child inside of me? Yes. He knew the whole time I was carrying his child. I did what every person should do. I picked up the pieces and moved on without him. There was light shining through my darkest moments. You keep moving on and each day is a struggle but the meaning to life becomes clearer in the end. I realized that I needed to make it through. I had to be a survivor.
 
Living a life of solitude was not an option. Making myself scarce and living in fear was not an option either. I was growing stronger and teaching myself to get that confidence back. I was teaching myself to be the person I am today. I had a little piece stolen from me, not my whole life.
 
Other's impurities are not my problem and they are not yours either. I have learned to let the words flow in one ear and out the other.

We all learn and we all live - but we don't have to live with abuse.

Posted by: purplevain909
Posted On: 08/09/10 at 07:07:08 PM

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